Moments with Daddy… without Mama

I walked in the back door like I always do.  It was early one morning recently, before the sun had risen, and there he was.... sitting at the table.   He never does that.  It almost scared me.  The words we'd all felt losing Mama seemed to be captured in that one little moment sitting at … Continue reading Moments with Daddy… without Mama

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Present over Perfect? Yeah, right.

Anyone who knows me knows I'm always searching, for what I'm never sure, but it continues daily.  I think it's primarily a peaceful spirit and a calm heart and mind, direction....oh wait, I said I was never sure, but of these things I am.  But in today's time? Are those things possible?  Many days I … Continue reading Present over Perfect? Yeah, right.

Moments to the Yes land…

That pull on my heart, it's there again.  It continues to come back or does it ever really leave?  Lately, I've felt led in directions I never thought about before. I've been confused and I know that only comes from the evil one but every time I've started to see clearing to spend more time … Continue reading Moments to the Yes land…

This side of heaven…

I remember it like it was yesterday, the hot July day we’d planned to get Mama to the beach for one last time before she went to heaven.  It sounds almost uneasy to say it that way but it was the simple truth.  At that point, she’d had dementia for nine years, her body was … Continue reading This side of heaven…

Old bootstraps… the best ones.

As I pray and delve into what I want to do with this blog for 2018, tons of ideas running through my head, I covet your prayers.  I was going back through things I'd posted over the years, I found several rough drafts I'd never shared, this one from 2014.... crazy how things change and … Continue reading Old bootstraps… the best ones.

Mama’s Shoes…

Mama will be gone a year next week.  As many of you can relate, it seems like ten years and it seems like last week.  Since she passed, we slowly but surely go through things of hers which never gets easier.  It’s funny what you learn about someone, even those you’ve loved your whole life, … Continue reading Mama’s Shoes…

Moments with Mama… and the Godfather

279 days ago, Mama went to heaven.  Part of me wanted to run behind her and part of me left with her.  Alzheimers did all it could to take from us, and yes, it succeeded in taking two things most precious ~ Mama and her memories.  But she won in the end by gaining back … Continue reading Moments with Mama… and the Godfather

Little notes…

Caroline's birthday is next week and so odd it's timing, I opened a journal this morning I'd not used in a while and in it was this note Mama had written herself obviously as a little reminder we needed to or were taking Caroline out on June 23rd.  The odd squiggly lines around it, so … Continue reading Little notes…

As the tassel turns…

One of my favorite writings is the one about the dash. I’m sure most of you have heard it but essentially it talks about the dash on our tombstones.  The date before the dash is of course the date we entered this world and the date after is the date we leave it.  The dash … Continue reading As the tassel turns…

Moments with Mama… I’m not Motherless.

Just recently, I was at Mama's, and on occasion, Daddy and I will go through a cabinet or drawer and see what in the world she'd tucked away.  In a cabinet we'd been in before was this photo, really big photo, hard to miss, but somehow we had.  I don't know that I'd ever seen … Continue reading Moments with Mama… I’m not Motherless.

Moments with Mama… the Gift

Twenty-four days ago, my Mama went to heaven.  It's taken me these three weeks to put this on paper because it's so precious to me and it's hard to share right now... it's on my heart every day.  When someone passes, there always seems to be interesting things that happen, signs either not noticed before … Continue reading Moments with Mama… the Gift

Moments with Mama… the Bouquet

I share this here so I can keep it with memories I’ve kept of Mama.  I wrote it a few nights ago, a short time before she left us.  I was watching her breath, her little heart struggling, and I was trying to envision her journey as she left us here and went to heaven. Daddy … Continue reading Moments with Mama… the Bouquet

Moments with Mama…the Gift

This week, I experienced something that may seem so insignificant to some, especially if you've not seen how much Mama has changed this summer, how little she's responding in her movement and expression, but to me, it was the memory I'll cling to past the end and I've learned if I don't write it down, … Continue reading Moments with Mama…the Gift

Moments with Mama…letters to Linda

Mom's doctor made a house call today to see what had changed with her in these last couple of weeks.  When he left, we were all changed.  He told us he's fairly certain she's had a stroke.  We were not really shocked because a couple of weeks ago, we saw drastic changes pretty much overnight. … Continue reading Moments with Mama…letters to Linda

Moments with This Mama…

Well, it's Mother's Day, and I am grateful. To my first born child, the squeakiest baby I know, I love you.  You taught me how to hold your head, while Mawmaw and Pawpaw kept saying, "Now hold her head."  You taught me carpet was not important, spit up was just spit up, and red hair … Continue reading Moments with This Mama…