I walked in the back door like I always do. It was early one morning recently, before the sun had risen, and there he was.... sitting at the table. He never does that. It almost scared me. The words we'd all felt losing Mama seemed to be captured in that one little moment sitting at … Continue reading Moments with Daddy… without Mama
I remember it like it was yesterday, the hot July day we’d planned to get Mama to the beach for one last time before she went to heaven. It sounds almost uneasy to say it that way but it was the simple truth. At that point, she’d had dementia for nine years, her body was … Continue reading This side of heaven…
As I pray and delve into what I want to do with this blog for 2018, tons of ideas running through my head, I covet your prayers. I was going back through things I'd posted over the years, I found several rough drafts I'd never shared, this one from 2014.... crazy how things change and … Continue reading Old bootstraps… the best ones.
Mama will be gone a year next week. As many of you can relate, it seems like ten years and it seems like last week. Since she passed, we slowly but surely go through things of hers which never gets easier. It’s funny what you learn about someone, even those you’ve loved your whole life, … Continue reading Mama’s Shoes…
279 days ago, Mama went to heaven. Part of me wanted to run behind her and part of me left with her. Alzheimers did all it could to take from us, and yes, it succeeded in taking two things most precious ~ Mama and her memories. But she won in the end by gaining back … Continue reading Moments with Mama… and the Godfather
Caroline's birthday is next week and so odd it's timing, I opened a journal this morning I'd not used in a while and in it was this note Mama had written herself obviously as a little reminder we needed to or were taking Caroline out on June 23rd. The odd squiggly lines around it, so … Continue reading Little notes…
Just recently, I was at Mama's, and on occasion, Daddy and I will go through a cabinet or drawer and see what in the world she'd tucked away. In a cabinet we'd been in before was this photo, really big photo, hard to miss, but somehow we had. I don't know that I'd ever seen … Continue reading Moments with Mama… I’m not Motherless.
Twenty-four days ago, my Mama went to heaven. It's taken me these three weeks to put this on paper because it's so precious to me and it's hard to share right now... it's on my heart every day. When someone passes, there always seems to be interesting things that happen, signs either not noticed before … Continue reading Moments with Mama… the Gift
I share this here so I can keep it with memories I’ve kept of Mama. I wrote it a few nights ago, a short time before she left us. I was watching her breath, her little heart struggling, and I was trying to envision her journey as she left us here and went to heaven. Daddy … Continue reading Moments with Mama… the Bouquet
This week, I experienced something that may seem so insignificant to some, especially if you've not seen how much Mama has changed this summer, how little she's responding in her movement and expression, but to me, it was the memory I'll cling to past the end and I've learned if I don't write it down, … Continue reading Moments with Mama…the Gift
Mom's doctor made a house call today to see what had changed with her in these last couple of weeks. When he left, we were all changed. He told us he's fairly certain she's had a stroke. We were not really shocked because a couple of weeks ago, we saw drastic changes pretty much overnight. … Continue reading Moments with Mama…letters to Linda
As I sit here in the dark, Mama is asleep in the next room. Mother’s Day is, well, not the same anymore, to say the least. When I think of what Mama has lost, I can't even take it all in. 69 years of a life before Alzheimers, 69 years gone. Thankfully, we were part … Continue reading Oh Mama…another Mother’s Day
My Mama was a great cook, she just never wanted anyone in the kitchen "under her feet" when she was cooking - that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it. Seriously though, Mama worked full-time as long as I could remember and came home tired and just wanted to get supper on the table. At … Continue reading Moments with Mama…and Little Debbie
The Moments with Mama are ever changing and always hard to absorb. Every day is a learning experience to which many of you can relate. For going on a year now, we've not been able to understand Mama's sentences or communication hardly at all. We occasionally catch a word here and there but those are rare … Continue reading Moments with Mama… God-sent moments
Last night, Mama and I made our usual route around the big metropolis of Mebane. Oh, occasionally, we'll head to the big city of Burlington (have to pack a lunch:) and get a Dunkin' Donuts coffee or a Zack's Hotdog, one of her favorites, but usually, it's just around Mebane. We ride "out to the … Continue reading Moments with Mama…Linda and the Lipstick