I wanted to write this jubilant post about the new year, and yes, there are so many things I'm excited about. God has been so doggone good to me, it definitely surpasses my understanding, and I don't like being down - it's not me and if you don't want to read my Eeyore post, I … Continue reading Moments with Mama…the last prayer
I walked in at Mom's yesterday to take her for a ride around town. Our wonderful caregiver, Sharon, was with her, and Mama just smiled when I walked in like she knew me and had not seen me in years. She does that every time I see her and it never gets old. While Sharon … Continue reading Moments with Mama…it is what it is.
Moments with Mama.... I didn't think my rushed nerves could take 15 minutes to watch the video below but I'm so glad I did - it's like it was written for me and Mama, about me and Mama. https://youtu.be/P1TCnxkvEiQ There is an indescribable feeling sometimes when I look into Mama's eyes, really look, up close, … Continue reading Moments with Mama… Inside Those Eyes
Today, my Mama turns 77. I don't know about you but the older I get, the younger that sounds. It hit me this morning though, that in Mama's world, her last birthday was around age 70.... she seems to be stuck in or around the year 2008. For women, forgetting your last seven birthdays may … Continue reading Moments with Mama… not her last birthday
I got to sit with Mama early this morning and I just let her sleep as long as she'd like. She finally got up around 8:30 and moseyed around the house not even realizing I was there. I watch her shuffle her little feet from her couch she likes to sleep on to Daddy's room … Continue reading Rosanna Rosanna Danna
I stumbled upon this song today by Jerry Lansdowne dedicated to his mother with Alzheimers. Just had to share the lyrics because they're exactly what we think Mama must feel or have felt back in the earlier stages..... "I'm not me anymore" I’m breaking I can feel it inside Something’s taking over my mind Causing … Continue reading One cell at a time…
So I broke down and watched Still Alice ...alone.... probably not a wise decision. As some of you know, it's about a 51 year old woman diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer Disease, her family, her quick deterioration, her children being tested for the disease. I sobbed the entire movie, the ugly kind of sob. The … Continue reading Moments with Mama…. the Fear
GLIMMERS... For Mama These dark corners in my mind keep expanding, trying so hard to consume the light. But even in the darkest dark, these glimmers still come and go, glimmers of light like riding through a tunnel with windows, glimmers of images, of familiarity. I am confused why they do not stay. So many faces … Continue reading Glimmers
Moments with Mama.... are moving back to the country. We moved Mama into memory care about three weeks ago and yesterday, Daddy brought her back home. Many of you have asked about her and Daddy and it means so much. Daddy brought her back home yesterday, his heart was broken leaving her in … Continue reading Taking Mama home…
I shared this with a couple of friends last week but it's been weighing heavy on my mind still. For those of you who have been through Alzheimers or dementia with a loved one, you will understand. For those of you haven't, and I pray you don't, you will come to realize one day that … Continue reading A few flowers…
So many of you have messaged me or asked me when we were out and about how Mama is doing and it touches my heart each time. I've not shared a post in quite a while. Quite frankly, the daily changes we're seeing are squeezing out the ability to find the laughter. We still try … Continue reading Pajamas and the pocketbook…
Night before last, I was driving Miss Daisy as we like to say when we're driving Mama around. This is the time of day we literally take turns driving her around the county to keep her happy and to give Daddy a break mentally and physically. It's her sundown time, her toughest, his toughest, and … Continue reading I knew it was coming…
As I think about today, I am thankful, but there are so many varying emotions that go through my mind as I am sure many of you can relate to. And memories... thinking about how every Mother's Day we religiously went to church and how Daddy religiously brought in a red flower for us to … Continue reading Mother’s Day….
Daddy, Mama, and I were supposed to leave on a trip to Pennsylvania with Daddy's church group today. We were to return on Wednesday. However, when Mama made such a big turn a couple of weeks ago, we decided it was best not to take her on that long bus ride up there and back. … Continue reading Life as we know it…
The last two weeks have brought drastic change in Mama, it's almost hard to believe. I keep seeing that first MRI of Mama's brain the doctor showed us back when they felt sure she had Alzheimers back in about 2009. The doctor explained the white we saw on the screen, the white matter, that was … Continue reading Those Women
Moments with {this} Mama 